Time

As 2011 comes to a close I have a lot to think about. What a year it has been! It consisted of half of my junior and half of my senior year. So many wonderful things have happened! But time is just flying by. It makes me sad and nervous. Mostly because I'm basically WISHING the time away. Like I say, time go faster so this class will be over. Time go faster so this day will be over. Time go faster so it will be Friday. Time go faster so it will be the end of the quarter and I can have a day off school. Time go faster so I can graduate. Time go faster so Scott will be home. Time go faster so I can be done with college and married. Time go faster so I can have kids of my own. Time go faster so I can...die? ...So often I find myself so anxious for the next thing coming that I forget to enjoy the experiences I'm having in the present. It's insane that 2nd quarter is almost over. I've got one more semester of high school left before I really have to be brave. Grow up. Go to college. It's freaking me out.

BUT. Everything is wonderful :) I'm having so much fun with life! My senior year has been incredible so far. This was one of the best marching band seasons Copper Hills has seen in a while. We actually got trophies that we deserved! We worked hard and played hard! (literally hahaha) I grew so close to so many people! Especially my section. I felt so blessed when we were at Red Rocks and I realized that my very best friends in my band WERE my section. Clarinets FTW :) I'm thankful for Anna and Katie. For always being there to laugh with and to have fun at sectionals when no one came. They let me just talk to them whenever I needed. They listened to I don't know HOW many dumb stories about boys. They let me be weird and enjoy long hours of rehearsals. They are the best section leaders ever :) Kaitlyn is so funny and so nice. She was always there to make sure we were being nice to and about people. Riley is our little brother :) He's so cute and he always made me smile. The fact that he is totally in love with Kaitlyn kept us all entertained. Bunnie was always driving people to...the moon :) but when she came she always worked hard. I love that girl a lot :) Everyone else was spectacular as well :) I never thought I'd have a family like the one from my sophomore year. But we did. We became ONE again. :)

This year has brought so many tears and so many smiles. My best friend in the whole wide world, Kolby, made  this year so wonderful :) He has ALWAYS been there for me. We've been through a lot this year. Things that I never knew would bring us closer together did. Even when we broke up for 2 months he was still right there for me. When Jaxen passed away I was having such a hard time and I was super freaked out by it all. Anyway he let me come over and talk to him right before I went to her viewing. He just made everything so much easier for me. He brings me comfort in such hard times. When my good friend Anjelica passed away he was there to let me cry to him. When I became band president he let me go on and on about how excited I was. When Scott left on his mission and all I wanted to do was cry, he was there to hang out with me and make me feel better. He's there to miss Scott with me. He lets me talk about the things  we write in our letters. hahaa When I am bored he lets me hang out with him and makes me laugh. :) I guess it's just good to have a friend like him :) He's so sweet. He cares so much about me and always makes me smile. :)
In May right before school ended I got a call from President Parker saying he wanted to meet with me. I was nervous...but that's because I knew exactly what he wanted to talk about. I went to the Stake Center with my parents that night and he extended the most wonderful calling to me. I was to serve on Seminary Council for the 2011-2012 school year. That was a huge and incredible blessing. My dear friend Kara was currently on it and I felt so grateful I had someone to look to for advice and comfort in hard times. Serving on SemCo has been such a blessing in my life. First of all, I have 11 of the best friends a girl could ever ask for. People I was once very close to I am able to talk to again. People I never knew before now are some of my greatest friends. Second, I get to SERVE people! It's amazing! And the best part about that is it's mostly silent service. It's behind the scenes stuff I get to do...Like glue sticks to an ark or think of ways to challenge the seminary students. I'm extremely shy and it's nice to be able to do things without having my face plastered all over the school. I love reading conference talks and trying to apply them to me. I love getting more out of class than I have before because I feel I need to be on my best behavior and be a good example to others. I was having a hard time at the beginning of the year because it's like EVERYONE is watching me. Everyone is judging my every move to see if I do something wrong. And when I do they love to remind me that a "perfect little seminary council kid" shouldn't do things like that. I was so frustrated and I hated the mocking. I spent so much time worrying about it and being angry at people who weren't perfect either. I talked to some friends and mostly my Heavenly Father and they helped me see that I need to just TRY harder to be a better example. Don't give people a reason to call me out on things. Plus, I can kindly remind them that everyone is here to learn and that I was trying my best to be good. That's all I can do, right? :)

My parents are the best, by the way :) They've taken me on so many cool vacations in my life- specifically this year. I got to go to Mt. Rushmore! My whole life I thought that would be so so boring but it wasn't! It was incredible and I learned so much about my country. I realized how important America is. I'm so thankful to have been born here in this free land. I know people say all the time how awful it is here...but I love it. I think every nation has its faults. But this is MY country. And I'm completely in love with it :)

I'm also glad that this year I got to spend so much time with my sisters. We have so much fun together! We love to shop and spend gift cards :) and laugh and watch food network together. It's the best :) THEY are the best!

My brother is so fun to live with. I like being in the basement with him. I don't get to see him all that much  because our schedules are so conflicting but when I do he's funny and he always does nice things for me. He saves my life when I need gas or a jump in my car battery. He's quite the handyman :) I love to watch tv with him. Teen Mom is our fav ;) haha he's just awesome.

I really have loved 2011 so much. My odd numbered years always seem to be the best ones :P I had a lot of favorite days. I'm so glad I have a family and friends that love me for who I am. They let me speak my mind and be my weird self. :)

As much as I hate to see 2011 end, I'm stoked for 2012! This is MY year! Class of 2012! :) I can't wait to see what happens and enjoy the adventure of graduating and moving on to college..... haha I'm scared but it's going to be awesome! :)

Accomplishments:
Got my license!
Passed Math 1050
Got a 4.0
Finished personal progress...again :)
Read my scriptures *almost* every day
Kissed that one boy ;)
Got a 1- at state with my clarinet choir!
Made new friends
Actually snail-mailed a letter...or a few ;)
Spent time with family :)
Made it to my one year anniversary with my babe :)
Survived Trek
Learned how to wait for things
Performed by BEST SHOW every competition
Actually memorized and remembered all of my sets during one week of band camp
Learned how to be a leader (still working on it but it's improved a lot :))
Take time to be thankful for things every day
Got accepted to the University of Utah
Texted lots ;)
Got a blog! :)
and more!

Here's to 2012 :)