Farewell to (un)Lucky '13

People have suspicions of the number 13.

Some love it, some hate it.

Some people even build buildings without a 13th floor because... reasons.

Seems stupid, but they really do it.

2013 was definitely a weird year.

I failed myself miserably at life and happiness for a long time.

Try five months.

The beginning of the year was a whole lot of life kicking Kara while she was down.

I made some really dumb choices and was really lonely.

Winter lasted FOREVER and I had like one friend.

And she lived 45 minutes away. 

My classes seemed so dumb and impossible.

Everything that happened before May is a messy blur of numb feelings and strange colors.

I had no hope, no passion, no drive.

I never would have guessed that 2013 could have ended the way it did.

I never knew my dream boy would come home and want to see me,

ONLY me.

I never knew he'd be so crazy head over heels in love with someone as sad and broken as I was. 

I never knew that my life could completely flip around and that I could be so insanely happy with myself and my life.

I never knew such a sweet and caring man would ask me, little Kara, to be his wife.

Forever.

I never knew he'd happily come along to every single moment of wedding planning.

I never knew he'd like my family so much.

I never knew he'd let me cry to him weekly (sometimes daily) about dumb things stressing me out.

I never knew he'd become my best friend and my entire life.

Now, I know it.

Among school, family, work, church, friends, and Scott, I feel like I'm finally realizing the possibilities ahead.

The incredible things I learned and experiences I had helped me grow into someone I always dreamed I could be, but never really thought possible.

I couldn't be more grateful for this year.

Good and bad times included.

I wouldn't trade these experiences for anything.

I look forward to this next year and all the changes ahead. 

I'm thankful that this year, I won't have to wait until May to be happy.

I can be happy in January.

And I can stay happy until December.

Here's to another year. A year I didn't anticipate would be facing me so soon.

DFTBA